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@lisa I did exactly the same thing: I came out to my wife exactly one week after cracking my egg. The outcome, as you know, was not too dissimilar. It was clear for me too, after 30 minutes, that our marriage was over. Unlike you, I didn't have any hope she would change her mind; I knew, in my deepest depth, that it was over. I knew, also, that regardless of what I was about to lose, this was something I couldn't stop. It was going to be devastating, but it was worth it. And it would allow my ex to eventually love someone the way she wants.

After some periods of enormous tension, we also managed to stay friendly, but after some of the things she said to me in the aftermath of my coming out, we will never be friends. Although I understand that my coming out was a shock to her, nothing justifies the brutality of the attacks she unleashed on me; the accusations and threats she made in those following months were horrendous. In my moment of most dire need, where I most needed the person I loved to be empathetic and understanding, she dropped me like I was nothing.

7 months later, and our separation is about to become real. I signed a lease for an apartment and I should move in at the end of March. As a good project manager that I am, I have plotted a timeline of what I am going to buy, from where and on what days, and then the days in which I will progressively take the stuff in. I am excited about this: I am going to live alone for the first time in my life, and I love the prospect. It saddens me that I will no longer share my kids' lives on a daily basis, but I so need to walk away from this limbo situation and the sharing of a home with someone who so thoroughly despised me when I needed her love the most. Of those feelings you mention, I only feel relief, joy and wonder. If anything, those months showed that I was doing the right thing and she was not the kind of person I want to be with. I am certain I will be better off.